10.15.09

1. my mom called and mentioned that she had been reading "Water for Elephants" to Bruce every night. she said they both enjoyed it very much. imagining them, all comfortable in bed and experiencing this wonderfully fun and adventure-filled book together, laughing together, crying together, gasping together, just makes me smile.

2. a tear-filled message from Belkis, and i am again wondering how i can be so selfish when i'm best friends (and platonic soul mates) with the most amazing person i've ever met. she is going to change the world, and has already changed me. i am so incredibly lucky.

3. laughter shared with Arianna.

4. my favourite cuddle-buddy, a stuffed elephant, has the softest trunk and ears ever, and the saddest eyes. he gets all of my love when i'm so far away from everyone.

5. i wrote: "Dear Cody, I still adore/love you and probably always will. I don't want to do the relationship thing again, but maybe I could lay my head on your shoulder sometime and we could read. I'd really like that. Much love, Elyse."

6. last night, after finishing up a slew of graphs, i laid down to sleep. suddenly i felt the fullness of life--absolute completeness, absolute contentment. i wondered, is this how most people feel most of the time? i remember this feeling, but barely. i want to feel it all of the time. i crave it.

7. absolute anticipation: Where the Wild Things Are.